I can't sleep. It's rare that I can't sleep, but tonight my mind won't turn off. Earlier tonight, I played a big concert in Seattle. I wore a few different hats throughout the day. In the afternoon, I rushed to finish painting a large backdrop before rushing to the venue to set it up. Then set up for the music, sound check and getting in the mindset to perform. Perform. Then, switch to socializing mode. Then take down everything, pack up and go home. I had some macaroni, went on Facebook and then to bed. But after everything my mind wont shut off.
So, I was thinking about life, my life, or anyone's life and how it's always changing. I suppose some people do what they can to avoid change, though it comes anyway. I know an older man who has lived in the same small town his whole life. He has seen his share of changes. Marrying his wife, having children, raising a family, deciding to get divorced. I wonder though, how his heart and mind have changed over time.
Lately, I've seen changes around me. They come in small ways and quickly. Part of this is because I travel quite a bit and I'm often saying hello and goodbye to friends. There are constants though. For me they are called Tommy and Bruce, Ministry, Garage Voice, my family, my God.
I don't really know what I'm getting at. I'm just writing. I'll keep writing.
It's a strange feeling when you set your heart on something, time grows but then the day comes when you realize that it's time to move on and life must change again.
And then things keep changing. For better or worse.